I’ve been working on improving my health and wellness since the beginning of the year. I’ve made a lot of progress so far but not in the ways I expected. I definitely am more fit as far as ability to exercise (when I first went to the gym in January I swear I felt like my heart was going to pop) but I haven’t slimmed down as much as I would like.
For most of my life I was a little on the huskier side until the summer before my sophomore year of high school when I hit an all time high for me at the time, 140 lbs, and whipped myself into shape. I ended up getting down in 125 lbs but looking back I feel like my methods weren’t the healthiest.
It wasn’t until after I graduated high school that I started to put on a little bit of weight again. I remember being really stressed about it back with I was in college which… what a joke! I WISH I was 130 – 135 lbs again! But I guess it’s easy to trivialize my concerns in retrospect.
After I dropped out of college is when I gained the most weight. Me being an emotion eater mixed with the stress of trying to survive on my own financially (and failing) led to a lot of nights with some cheesy bread sticks. In early 2015 I did try to whip myself into shape but fixing my bad eating habits was a lot harder than I expected and I continued to gain weight.
At the beginning of 2016 I was at my all-time heaviest, 153 lbs, but instead of focusing on losing weight this year like I have in the past I’ve been focusing on getting and keeping the habit of working out and adopting better eating habits. As it turns out, being healthier is a lot less stressful when I’m not focused on the numbers!
It takes a long time to completely change your lifestyle, but I’m at a point where I’m comfortable enough with my exercise and eating habits than I’m finally, 8 months later, able to focus in on losing weight with a healthy mindset. I’ve made quite a bit of progress so far, now at 142 lbs, but it took a lot of work before I started to see any. I feel really good about my wellness and I’m hopeful about reaching my body goal by the end of the year. My journey with my health has been a long one, but I didn’t start to make progress until I realized that it’s not about weight, but about the choices I make every day to take better care of myself. Nowadays I can’t even imagine eating cheese sticks anymore, which is worlds away from where I was just a year ago!