At this point in my life there is a lot of pressure on me to figure out my dream career and to start working towards it. Quite frankly, I don’t know what I want to commit to as a career. It’s not a simple as ‘go to school’ for me, either. I’m sure one day I’ll go back to college but I don’t want to go back until I know what I want to do for a living. I don’t want to go spend tens of thousands of dollars on a degree I don’t want to use.
I don’t get why other people don’t understand this about me. Some people my age know what they want to do and are going to school but honestly it’s not that black-and-white. Even people who get to school and finish their degree wonder why they spent so much time energy and money on it. A lot of them are still exactly where I am in life: working part time and wondering what they’re going to do next.
There’s not a ‘wrong’ way to go about school or pursuing a career. My issue is the people who keep trying to rush others like me who aren’t sure what they want to do. I’m lucky enough to know a few of my interests and I know I’m filled to the brim with talent, but I still need time to figure out what I’m going to do with it.
Over the past couple of years I couldn’t even begin to think about a potential career for myself because I was too stressed about figuring out how to survive month to month. How can I think about buying textbooks if I’m struggling to pay rent?
I feel like I’m finally in a place in my life that I can spend more time thinking about what I want to do for a living. I’m beginning to get a general idea of what I want to do next which is a HUGE step for me. I’m still unsure of how I’m going to get there but I have time, talent, and determination. I’m still putting a rough plan together but I feel motivated to better my work life and most importantly I feel like it’s actually possible for me. Even with this little bit of progress I still feel like it’s important for the people around me to let me take my time and figure out what I’m doing next on my own terms.